Wow, that got real o'clock

My recent trip taught me that I'm determined, strong willed, and resourceful. And while I don’t feel that I deserve what I actually want, because of all the baggage I come with, some people are capable of carrying on the bags that others would have to check.

Being alone isn’t as terrifying as I thought, as long as I can manage staying calm and thinking instead of letting my emotions run the show. And who cares what the douchebag does or does not know…anyone who is scared away wasn’t worth it and those who stay need presents! (Thanks for that one Mama Rose) Some people deserve a second chance, and some people deserve to be shot.

Bugs ARE as repulsive as I’ve always believed them to be, but there isn’t anything else to be scared of that calming down and thinking through rationally couldn’t help resolve. I shouldn’t be so judgmental…that one toothed hillbilly on the side of the mountain may be making his own clean burning fuel from local restaurant’s old, dirty vegetable oil…absolutely amazing!

My kids only REALLY have me, and if I don’t want them to grow up to BE me, I need to chill on the stress…while at the same time finding more energy for them. They deserve the moon and I’m the only person who can give it to them.

I CAN have everything I want, and if I pull myself out of my funk (and my head out of my ass) and just LET LIFE HAPPEN, the rest will sort itself out. Big pictures are beautiful, but without the little parts that create them they’d cease to exist.

And if every single mother had a Jacuzzi, a beautiful view, and a little wine to wind down with at the end of her day, she might just make it through to the next…